| well, this is the last post on Blogger. My insane procrastination has led me to redo my blog in PHP (i'm insane to have done so). I have to say it's looking kick ass. So those of you that have read this might want to redirect your bookmarks to www.verge.ca/blog Enjoy! |
| I don't know if this date is correct. It seems like forever. I've been living out of a suitcase for a year. where's the candle to blow out? |
| Losing weight has been pretty cool. It's given me a confidence I could never imagine having. More engery, better clothes.....just better life in general. I'm not fully there yet....but for the most part, I think I'm looking ok. One of the things with losing weight is the attention of women. Let's face it....women don't like fat guys. It wasn't the main reason I lost the weight, but it is a welcome addition to it. But holllllly fuck. I'm clueless. Reading women now is like studying hieroglyphics. I know of 3 women since moving here that I think are sending signals......but they could be saying i have something on my forehead for all i know. Anyway....One of them's here now, so I'll end this blog. I'll piece it all together somehow. |
| Losing weight has been pretty cool. It's given me a confidence I could never imagine having. More engery, better clothes.....just better life in general. I'm not fully there yet....but for the most part, I think I'm looking ok. One of the things with losing weight is the attention of women. Let's face it....women don't like fat guys. It wasn't the main reason I lost the weight, but it is a welcome addition to it. But holllllly fuck. I'm clueless. Reading women now is like studying hieroglyphics. I know of 3 women since moving here that I think are sending signals......but they could be saying i have something on my forehead for all i know. Anyway....One of them's here now, so I'll end this blog. I'll piece it all together somehow. |
| Or more specifically.....nothing at this stage. Always the situation when beginning a project. In this case, 2 websites. My own and a client's. And lately it's become more and more difficult. I just seem so un-creative when attempting new projects. A great deal I think has to do with the annoyance and frustration i encounter when actuallly building a website. I remember telling myself at one time I didn't want to get into programming. There was a point where I was going to stop and just cconcentrate on the design and execution of projects such as these. But as days went on and as grocery purchases had to be met, I dove into the geekier waters of design. Which leads me to my client's website that I'm doing. I think it's one of the first sites where I am hiring someone to build the website. I've delegated on small team efforts before...but this is the first one where I feel I can be somewhat free to design. It truely is a nice feeling. Yet I enter into the design process thinking "how's that going to work?" or..."how would I ever do that?" In this past, this led to hours (sometimes days) of research and trial and error......really leading to more spinning my tires in the mud. It's tricky to get past this...but I will. As for my own website, more and more I have an interest in getting someone else to build it. Doing so would mean money and that is something I'm not plentiful in these days. But I'm trying to justify that it really is an investment. A professional would solve a lot of the problems and desires I have for my website. We'll see how it works out. On other news. I seem to be the king of non-synchronization. Rumor has it that there may be a job open in Halifax that I might have an in at. Just as i was starting to settle here in TO. But in reality, it is a good money-making / stabilizing opportunity. We'll have to see how it plays out. A new look for the blog and hopefully (after a suggestion from a friend of mine) a commitment to update a little more often. We'll see. |
| Hey to everyone out there that reads this. My verge website and email are FINALLY back on and are solid. Apologize to anyone who might have been trying to reach me. I have my own server and stuff. Look for some cool things hopfully in the near future. |
| I didn't watch the Juno's. I'll start off by saying that. So maybe my comment that they suck unfounded in the eyes of some. But I do think most would agree with me on this point. In a year that fantastic bands have been receiving world wide acclaim, the Juno judges have again chosen sales over talent. Now I know it's naive to think that Arcade Fire would win an award like record of the year....but really, our priorities are srewed up when a band like Nickelback can win year after year. It's very similar to the East Coast Music Awards giving Great Big Sea top honors again and again. Oh well, The Juno's won't change. But that's ok. I know who the real winners are at last nights show. |
| To anyone who might be trying to get ahold of me, my email and website have both been down for awhile now. As to why would take too long to explain. I am trying to get it fixed. To those that want to see my website it is being hosted under http://www.thelapdawg.com/~vergeca To those trying to email me, I have gmail account - jasonalward@gmail.com I hope to get this resolved soon. |
| Well, to those that read this, I figured I best give you an update as to what was happening with me. It has been awhile since my last post. Some good, some bad. Eb and flow. I am still in Toronto. And it seems different than the last time I was here. The last time I was here I wasn't really working....just a lot of looking for work. I still am this time around, but I'm offsetting my rent with some freelance work I'm doing for my friend Laura who owns a design firm. She's just starting out and can't hire me full time. So in exchange for my crashing at their place, I'm doing some web design for them. I don't feel as guilty this time because a) I'm doing work for my rent, and b) I'm busy doing work so it somewhat excuses my lack of handing out resumes since i got here. In general...it's just nice to work. I get the odd payment here and there and I pick up freelance projects outside this arrangement. So no full time work and still in debt...but not on the streets. I believe that with time I'll find something here. For the last little while I began thinking of ways I could make it work if I moved back....and then I realized I can't make it work in the situation I'm in. I have to say that It wasn't so much living in Charlottetown that pissed me off....it was more the patronage nature of that city. There was no way you could sustain yourself unless you had connections through family or friends. I'm somewhat bitter about that..but really I'd take those opportunities if they were presented with me. There are other methods that I'm looking at, but in the short term they wouldn't work. So this time, I do believe I'm here longer than 3-4 months. It's also a bit easier that I have other friends here. Good friends from Charlottetown....who in turn are introducing me to others from here and in some cases from back east. 2 of my best friends, Dave Noel and Jud Cameron are here and that makes the stay quite a bit easier. On the shittier end of the scale. I ended a relationship with a woman I started seeing back east. It's weird. I was in Charlottetown on and off for 10 years....had a couple of relationships that maybe weren't great. But this one....this was someone I enjoyed being with very much...unfortunately it was towards the end of my days there. We both knew that I was moving up front..and I tried to continue it after I left. But the knowledge that we wouldn't be in the same vacinity anytime soon was really making it hard to root myself here. Honestly, it's hard to be in any relationship in my situationn right now. This whole thing was one of the hardest things about the move to Toronto. But most of my life I've been through similar situations. I have the job, i'm unemployed, I find someone, I'm moving....so on and so forth. Instability is my middle name. Back to a positive note. To those who know me, I had lost 90 lbs. within the past year. But since arriving I stopped going to the gym and started eating poorly again. My outlook was looking down. I'm happy to say that last week I put a stop to this slippery slide. I began eating right and I made a return to the gym. And wow! There's no excuse for people here not to have a membership at a gym. Toronto owns and runs a number of gyms in and around the city. They're part of the parks and recreation department. This in turn allows the memberships to be dirt cheap! For instance....if you wanted to just use the weight room, a 6 month memberrship is $55. If you want a membership that includes the whole facility (basketball court, track, weights, cardio, and pool) it'll run you $50 for 3 months. Anyway you slice it, it's an amazing deal! Charlottetown should look into doing something similar with the now defunct Charlottetown Community Centre. To regular lurkers of this blog...and even new readers, I will be moving this blog to my own server in the near future. Since arriving, I've learned a few web tricks with the help of my friend Dave. I'm hopfully going to be implementing that knowledge into a new website for my work (verge) and a blog. When that all goes down, I'll let folks know. Until then, take care to all and I'll try and write again in the near future. |
